What is Mindfulness really about ?
What on Earth has it got to do with Modernism ?
These are questions that I have struggled with in the past. I have always had very stressful jobs and have had more than my share of personal issues to deal with. Not surprisingly this led me to seek a way to keep myself calm and positive when things start to get on top of me. I now realise that the majority of people could describe themselves in the same sort of terms, if not permanently then certainly at various points in their lives. I am not alone.
Now my problem was that I have never been the sort of person who had any time for New Worldly or Other Worldly ideas. I am not religious. I can only view Tai Chi as something for very slim young ladies. Meditation is for Samurai Warriors before eating their Snickers bars. I am, to say the least, very sceptical.
A couple of years ago things were really bad for me. Stress, depression and anxiety were totally ruling my life. I could feel myself sinking. I was desperate. So desperate that I took a serious look at what mindfulness was really all about. I had heard about it and the use of meditation techniques to create the sense of calm that I was after, but to be perfectly honest I remained totally sceptical. But nothing else had worked so I dug into it.
Essentially the messages that I found when reading about it and watching various videos was that it was less paranormal psychobabble and more science. Having done a lot of work professionally on the study of the Brain I found that I could relate to the scientific background to what it was trying to achieve quit easily. Because of this starting point I approached it from a purely scientific rational point of view.
For me the big problem was that I was always dwelling on things that have happened that I did not want to have happened. Everything that had gone wrong was a major crisis for me. Thinking about it constantly just made it worse. Yet there was NOTHING that I could do to change it. It had happened and that was that. What made it worse was the fact that as soon as I began to feel like this I spent ever more hours worrying about what I might be able to do in the future and what effects the event would have on the future. Often I couldn't plan anything to mitigate the situation and I felt even more helpless and worthless. I realised that most of my thinking was negative thoughts about the past and about possible future actions.
With Mindfulness I realised that actually at the vast majority of single points in time Nothing negative was actually happening to me. I was just eating, sleeping, breathing, walking just like everybody else. What I began to understand was that somehow I needed to find ways to concentrate on all of those millions of moments instead of those where I had no control at all. That is the power of Mindfulness - finding was to force yourself to think "In The Moment". It wasn't trying to "Think about Nothing" - it was deliberately trying to think about the Present moment.
So what has all of this to do with Digital Modernism ?
I have been involved in Digital editing and Design for decades now. From study of Mindfulness I realised that using your sense of vision is a good way to concentrate your mind on what you are seeing right now. By really focussing on what you see in front of you, it stops your brain from being hijacked by worries about what you have got to do in the future and what negative things have gone on in the past.
Digital Modernism allows you to do this over quite long periods when you are putting a piece of digital artwork together. You are forced to concentrate on every detail of what you are creating. Your concentration is purely on what you are working on.
Now the key thing about the science of Mindfulness is that not only does it have an immediate effect of stopping you from worrying about things you can't control, but it also makes you use the parts of your brain that deal with more mundane functions of the brain - the managing of the messages coming from your senses to be processed in the brain. What you are feeling emotionally and physically. What you can smell and hear. Also what you can see. The longer you can place the emphasis on this, the longer you are stimulating that part of the brain rather than the problem solving areas. The more you use that part the stronger it gets and the more your mind can deal with disruptions and use the calm inducing areas that the brain has to deal with "In the Present".
And here is the result of persisting with this. I never find myself swearing at the screen when something doesn't work ; I do not suffer from road rage ; I notice when people are nice towards me ; My temper is under control ; Most of all I feel calm the majority of the time. I cannot say that none of these things happen - ever - but they are much, much less frequent and far less serious when they do.
I have more to say about Digital Modernism - particularly for those who simply want to use the outcomes of the art as a way to develop mindful calm. I will be starting to produce a number of videos over the coming weeks to demonstrate this.